Tuesday, 29 January 2008

Unfulfilled dreams

I am grateful to be here, to be honest. Not many people get to have a chance to study overseas, therefore I can regard myself as a lucky person.
At my age of 24 in 2007, I started to feel that life is too short. I would like to try on new things, would like to go somewhere else to explore for more exciting experiences, to fulfill my dreams--to further studies.
This is my current dreams, but is also my dad's unfulfilled dreams.
During his time, he used to be the top student in class, but due to poverty, he missed twice the chance to study overseas--one in Australia, when an engineer from an Australian company offered him a scholarship to study in Australia; and another one, his college, offered further studies in conjunction with collaborations with a university college in United Kingdom.
Although I obtained partial scholarship up to 60%, it is still a burden to him...as I won't really afford to pay that much money. Those are money saved by him, from his low-paid salary job working for government, his hard-earned money...
So, now, I am here, experiencing something that should be experienced by him. I feel like I carried his hope, and fulfill my dreams, his as well, on behalf of him...
My housemate used to scold me crazy: studying master in engineering with 4 jobs. My boss in the internet cafe used to ask me not to work too hard. My colleague asked me to take it easy. To them, it might sound crazy, but to me, I wish that this is a challenge of life for me to overcome. No matter how difficult, I wish I could reduce the burden to my family, and try my best to achieve my dreams...It is not only my dreams that is carried on my shoulder, but my father's too...his unfulfilled dreams.
Just heard from my parents that some of my relatives cannot believe that I am now studying my master in UK, because they used to think that my father could not afford to send me to overseas. They are rich people that used to look down on my parents who work as government servants with low salary. No matter how tough the life here, I always believe that I can overcome it, without tears and be grateful that, I am here, fulfilling my dreams.
Parents always feel proud of their children, and children is their hope...I will not give up. Never. Not only for myself, but also for my parents...

2 comments:

pH said...

I envy you for holding such a strong passion and determination for your dreams. Keep it up gal. You will be able to do it. Don't hesitate to tell me when you feel troubled, bored, losing ur desire, or simply need someone to talk to. I will always be there for you. - Love, laogong.

SY said...

thank you very much...
(T_T)感动~~