花语

触摸阳光

我和你

茫茫花海

相依偎

贯注聆听

花之小径

分道扬镳

枝高招风

埋伏

渴望阳光

瓣下阳光

迟来的起飞

离队

分堤界

重新看这世界

有一段时期，发生了好多事，令我真的很不开心。可是一个人在异乡，无依无靠，每每回到宿舍就是对着四面墙。
可是，后来读了一个部落格，觉得，好多东西都是因为我们将我们所看到的、听到的、想到的作了判断，可是这些判断，无论对或错，都是令人觉得不开心的。
一切的原因，皆因“我”。因为“我”觉得是这样，所以“我”不开心。
现在的我，已经尝试把自己放在另一个角度，不再把这世界看成充满不同个体的世界，而是一个自己所相信的世界。从前的我想太多了，虽然不能保证现在也不会想太多，但我会尽量不想那么多。
换了个角度，觉得人看开了好多，也尝试不那么计较了。从前发现有人偷了我冰箱里的牛奶（一下子没了半瓶）、偷吃我的牛油（很明显的挖了个坑在中间）、偷吃我的花生酱（另一个坑）和芝士时，我总会在心里生气：“怎么这些不缺钱用的人那么好意思饮用为生活费捉襟见肘的人的食物？”现在的我偶尔会想：“就当作上一世欠他的，现在偿还” ，又或者，想想以后搬了就没见到他们了，就算了。虽然肚子饿时发现食物少了还是会觉得生气，但那“贼”总算有点良心不会吃个精光，当吃少点就算了。可是，我的忍功始终不算到家，因为他们通宵开派对或在室内吸烟我还是会严肃地斥责他们。
仍然有些事情想不通，可是我还是会努力的。虽然撑得有点累了……
给爱我的人们，我爱你们！所以我会努力的！虽然我真的好累、好想你们……
凡事加油哦！我对所有的人说。

A new perspective

Got some ideas on subjective reality...I started to look things in a new perspective.

It was my consciousness. It's all about me, my consciousness.

Sounds hard to understand, huh? I am stil trying hard to understand it.

It's like how you judge things. Everything around me is jus a projection of my own assumptions, that further controls my emotions.

Therefore, a new perspective that i hav chosen to look from, is not to make any assumptions.

Undeniably, sometimes I wil stil do so. Old habits die hard. Just percept things as just they are.

No more whining. I am now enjoying the loneliness here. No more fear-based competition, nor any judgements. Start again with a plain memory, although what happened in the past reality cannot be changed anymore. Just let it be. And just let everything start again.

how long it wil last?I hope it wil last forever. For being able to remind myself, to continue love what I love, to continue pursue what I want to achieve, to remove any hatred generated due to projections that might ony be my own assumptions or illusions.

Some say they free themselves through forget and forgive. I set myself free by realizing the presence of consciousness, and believe in myself. Do things I like to do and love my current life more. Also the people around me.

You are what you believe, and sometimes everything is what you believe. Try it. I am about to expect the changes in my life.
*I hope*

有点心灰

对自己周遭的人际关系有点心灰意冷。也许是开始觉得他们不信任自己，然后自己也觉得很难信任他们。
这个学期，将是个很累的学期。唯有努力了。
应该是我做得不够好吧？我想是的。可是我已经不知道，除了更努力我还可以做些什么了。
只是想起还有这么一段时间要去面对这些人，就觉得累……
除了累，还是累。
累。